Reflections

maybe I need some marijuana
to help mitigate this subtle displeasure
with life
in all its morning glory

cheap wine and smokes
I tell myself,
that will do the trick

and I'm reminded of that girl
who drank before
the interview
for a bartending job

feels like karma is hard to come by
these days

some of them I refuse
to wear coats
when everyone else is
and others I'll tell them 'you're welcome'

though putting myself out
on a thin rope
in unforgiving winds
is pretty constant

this is how I made myself
this is how I can
unmake